Scared
So many things crossing my mind
Death, future, life, emotion changes
So scared of death yes I constantly dream of it
Is my subconscious trying to encourage my fear?
Is i t drowning? Shot at? Raped?
Constant questions soon after I awake
I don't want to know how it happens but I'd like to come prepared.
Don't want to be left alone in the dark,
or chased at by monstrocity.
My subconscious is eerie and I am still sane
Oh please help me!
Get rid of all these nightmares whether
they are in my mind or just a thought
In my dreams, wondering if those are past lives death
Was I a suicide?
Must I be constantly punished?
I shut my eyes and physically feel the pain
Just repeating "i will not have bad dreams"
seems to do the trick until someone discovers
I'm no true magician.
